Is X-MAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Merry X-Mas my friends!
 Can we wish for? We all know the answer... the determination and courage to achive our goals and be skinny and perfect. Well, I'm working on that, keeping the motivation at all speed and locking the mouth to all the treats... hard to do but it feels good. Remember, been thin is a skill.

Here's some Thinspo!

Now, keep the following in mind if you are thinking of eating like a maniac!

Story No. II: Ana’s X-Mas Carol

Story No. II: Ana’s X-Mas Carol



Once upon a time live a chubby girl named Trish. She was very cranky on Christmas because she feels fat, grotesque and depression makes her cry. On Christmas’ Eve she refuses to visit her family or friends simply because she doesn’t want to been seen like that; she knows people call that shallow but she calls it self-respect and pride. In her effort to control her hungriness she locks herself in her room and forgets about Christmas, cursing all the eggnog, chocolate and cookies that fills the atmosphere.


She goes early to sleep with tears running down her face. Close to med night she wakes up to see her reflection, just a little younger. “I’m the ghost of your past.” And with those words she sees flashes of her life and what makes her unhappy. She sees a little girl finding comfort in sugar, fat and food in general. People at school calling her a cow, she remembers the tears, the agony, the loneliness…






Then, she is transported to another place, there’s her reflection. “Present” the shadow says. Then, Trish has flashbacks of the media and how the industries are stealing her money and killing her with food. There in the middle of nowhere she can see her family with her skinny sisters having fun, she’s not been missed.






Then, another reflection a skinny, perfect self. “I’m Ana and I can be your future.” The image changes… she looks beautiful, happy, she laughs with her family, play sports outsides without fatigue…






After a few hours Trish wakes up, she looks in the mirror and hates what she sees…”No more!” she screams, “I want happiness… Ana…”

Mutilation's Top 10 Things To have!

Ok, first of all I'm Back!

Top Ten Food I can't live without!

10- Cup-a-soup Cream Of Chicken: 68 calories (keeps you full as it's a hot food)

9-Egg white: 17 calories

8-Multi-Grain Bread: 45 calories a slice!

7- Octopous in Garlic light Oil: Serving Size: 1/4 cup, Calories: 90

6- Prunes (4): around 36 cal. (keeps you full, acts like a natural laxative and is full of antioxidants)

5-Crystal light: 10 calories per bottle (now there's a flavor to help your metabolism)

4-Light Yogurt: 80-100 calories (kill every craving)

3-Light Chocolaate Whipped Cream: 30 calories for 2 tbs (kills chocolate cravings)

2- I can't believe is not butter spray: 0 calories!

1-Nescafe 3 in 1: add 1/2 cup water for a 67 calories coffee that keeps you full (awesome at noon)

Mutilation Presents: Tales of Two Worlds...
Ana Bedtime Stories

Every Friday!

Story No. 1: The Ugly Duck

The celebration begins at the table,

The rituals of a gluttony society,

The ugly ducky will starve,

Until the transformation begin…

Behind closed doors the water will clean,

Those dirty lips that society infected with maggots,

The family laughs as they detest her,

An overeaten piece of garbage…

She was ugly, no matter where she hides

In school she knew how to be invisible,

At home she was a prisoner of her room,

The mirror shows how ugly she was growing into…

Then it happen, the day she gave up food

In the mirror a reflection unknown,

The ugly ducky found her place,

Between Ana and Mia she has turn into a beautiful Swan…

A little bit of everything

ok, so guess why my account was disable in Facebook? Apparently supporting ppl in their diets is consider harassment or bullying. That's just so stupid! And what happen to freedom of speech??? 

Anyways, haven't been eating that much which is good news and just trying out new exercises. I love Christmas but hate all the buffet and the way people seem to literally eat Christmas. There's fat, sugar & more sugar & more fat... people usually gain around 10 pounds in Christmas, disturbing... according to my family perception and curses afterward... excuse me but nobody shove the food down your throat! and you are to blame! 

So, guess this is my home to just find support... the other site I visited turned to trash... so wish to not gain a pound over Christmas... even if you can't stick to fasting or Ana, make sure you don't gain! 

Facebook UPDATED

ok, this sucks. My account was disable out of no reason. I wonder why? 
I mean, don't we get a chance to talk? can't we connect with other Ana/Mia? 

I'm fucking upset! Did I lose all my friends???
:( 


ok, so find me here:  onlyeve@rocketmail.com

My PoEm

Ignored

I see the same faces of yesterday,

The empty guts of a bright promise,

The same complains and insults that tortures,

The image of disgust I’ve created while the world turns blue…

I feel the intense pain of yesterday,

The empty lips where no words are allowed,

The same rituals to petrify my spirit,

The image of hatred in the coldness…

Down to the core there’s no more,

Death inside and then ignored,

The throat burns when there’s no water,

The lack of calories won’t get me on my knees…

I smell the lies of a killing substance,

The empty minds of obsessive eating to block the veins,

The same gluttony of imperfection,

The image of beasts been played like marionettes…

I hear the sound of a singing stomach,

The empty hurt that satisfy the fashion industry,

 The same strong will that prevails as beauty,

The image becoming less and the bliss blossom…

Down to the core there’s no more,

Death inside and then ignored,

The throat burns when there’s no water,

The lack of calories will make me forgive…